My computer keeps hanging up. I’m afraid I need a new one. This was a Windows 7 machine now running Windows 10. It takes me forever to do anything. Wow, when did I start writing this? I fell back to sleep while waiting for the computer to start working. It’s now many hours later. I don’t know how many. In the meantime I took a nap and made breakfast. It was one of those days where a simple meal that I eat often, bacon and eggs, tasted special. Having it with a bagel makes a difference. The best part was sopping up the egg with the toasted buttered bagel. That was exquisite. Joy can be found in the most mundane places.
That joy is a good thing as I’ve been fighting off negative thoughts. There is nothing like lying in bed and obsessing on grievances. One went back to October. After falling down several rabbit holes I caught myself and meditated. Meditation is like bacon and eggs, very simple and very rewarding. It doesn’t feel good but it lets me give up feeling bad. My mind has always raced. When it races down good pathways it’s an amazing gift; when racing down the bad ones a curse. Meditation allows me to put on the brakes. I’ve taken two sets of measurements to find its effect on my physiology. The first time it dropped my heartbeat rate by 11 bpm, the second time 5. This was not after a half an hour of deep meditation. This took no more than five minutes. I should have been doing this my entire life.
Even with this my sleep schedule has run amok. Yesterday I slept much of the day so of course I was up much of last night which is why I fell back asleep. My digestive system, not my brain, is at fault. I’m hoping for better tonight. I’m going out tonight, that should help. I’m seeing Carolann Solebello, Karyn Oliver, and Paul Sachs. Even though it’s at an inconvenient location in Brooklyn that still counts as a home game. One great thing about the location, I change trains a couple of blocks from The Mile End Deli. I see poutine in my future.
I’m going to keep it short today. I’m not going to rant about Trump or rant about people ranting about Trump. I’m not going not going to complain about something in the music world that is driving me nuts. I’m going to treat this edition of Wise Madness as a meditation and use it to apply the brakes to my thoughts. I had a delicious breakfast, and great plans for today. That is enough.
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