I accomplished something today. After suffering for weeks, I put in the air conditioners! It took me all this time to overcome my anxiety and ask the super to send someone up to install them. The guy never came. Then I realized, the reason I needed someone to do this kind of thing for me was my hernias. My hernias have been repaired. I could have done this at the beginning of the summer. After so many years I got in the habit of thinking of this as something I can’t do. I have the strength and knowhow for it. There’s not much required of either. I did need some ingenuity. Last year when they took the living room AC out of the window they broke off the accordion sleeves that seal it in the window. I did not realize that till I put it in. I was my father’s son. I took plastic shopping bags and taped them into the gaps. Good thing the one in my bathroom didn’t break, I ran out of duct tape. For the first time in a week I’m wearing a shirt indoors. For the first time in a week my back is not stuck to the back of my leather recliner. This hot spell has been murder. Now comes the tough decision. The Mets are playing tonight, and deGrom is pitching. The problem is that the only TV that I can watch the game on is in a room without AC. I might watch it in spurts. Last night was so hot that I didn’t cook dinner. I just had peanut butter; the kitchen has no AC. Tonight I could cook then run to the AC but that means missing the Mets. I have First World Problems.
I had my first appointment with my new psychiatrist. It was on the phone. It bothered me that I had no mental image of him. He sounds young. He also sounds like a he. My mental health professionals have been women. I’m not used to this. I quickly found out that’s not a problem. I should go though my phone records and compare my times talking to women and men. If it’s not 80% women I’d be surprised. A friend, not a close friend, said commended me on being “such a feminist” on my birthday. While I am a feminist, I never thought it was one of my outstanding traits. I’m such a geek, I’m such a music fan, I’m such a loudmouth. I speak up about lots of politics but much of the time I’m criticizing people that agree with me for making invalid arguments. That makes me seem less progressive to some people. I’m not, I just value intellectual honesty. Like Faramir I wouldn’t deceive an orc with a falsehood. The facts and logic are on my side, or that wouldn’t be my side.
I just got that feeling in my pit of my stomach when I thought about producing the virtual Budgiedome. I will have to overcome that and get it done. I know it would give me great joy and be good for my mental health. This is going to require meditating.
I got the email from the Census with the information on my training. I got it a week ago and miss the email. I knew the date was August 1, this Saturday. I didn’t know the location or time. It’s not the easiest thing to get to, it’s on the other side of the Bronx. I’m going to head straight out from there. to Brooklyn for another porch jam. I’m letting myself take the subway every few weeks. I feel a bit guilty about it. I’m good the rest of the time and I was tested negative for COVID-19. I’ll get tested once a month.
I’m in the room without AC watching the Mets. With the rest of my life missing, baseball has become more important. Baseball has been berry berry good to me. I love watching deGrom pitch. Oh no! deGrom gave up a double. I better concentrate on the game and help out the Mets. It worked; deGrom got out of the inning. That makes 29 consecutive scoreless innings for the best pitcher in baseball.
Wise Madness 