I stayed in and did nothing exciting yesterday. I’ve done nothing exciting today. I need eggs so it looks like I’ll go out tomorrow. Now that I have to pay for the bus going to Aldi and Stop & Shop I might end up going to the more expensive local store more often. Homework for tomorrow; sign up for the Fair Fare program. I am poor enough to get half-priced transit. That’s not an easy assignment for me. I’m much better at advising others. This hits me in my anxiety.
The calendar turned to September and the weather decided that it’s now autumn. I made hot coffee for breakfast for the first time since June. I forgot how to make it; I used a little too much coffee. I like my coffee strong, but I don’t need it that strong. It was past the point of diminishing returns in relationship to the cost of the beans. Three and a half measures are enough for two of my mugs, I used four. I have used as few as three. In the summer I switch to cold brew. I still have it in the fridge. It took me years to develop a taste for iced coffee but now I love it. I think it’s because most people make it too weak. The fact that it’s cold brew helps too. I make it with the espresso beans from Marie’s Coffee. That’s part of my pantheon.
There is a platoon practicing marching in the apartment above mine. It’s better than the usual herd of wildebeest but still loud. As you might guess strange things go on up there.
I had a terrible night’s sleep. It’s my own fault. I could feel the insomnia as soon as I got in bed. I know how to counter that, meditating. Why didn’t I meditate? It seems paradoxical as meditating is essentially doing nothing, but it requires energy and effort to start and I was too tired to start. That is not quite true, I was unwilling to make the initial energy investment, and that was a poor choice on my part. I need to learn to make the effort. I didn’t even realize that I fell asleep until I woke up and remembered my dream. It felt like I was awake the whole time. This was a first I dreamed that I was playing an arcade style videogame akin to breakout, that I often played 35-40 years ago. It was a more complicated game in the dream, similar to one whose name I forgot. There were different levels and in the end you had to defeat a monster. That’s a long time for an image to stay in my head.
Oh great, the wildebeest are back. Is there a savanna in that apartment? Is it like a Tardis, bigger on the inside than the outside? Those wildebeest have run miles already. If I hear a lion I’m calling the Bronx Zoo. It will probably be stamped, “Property of the zoo.” Before you ask, they stamp them when they’re small.
None of the things that I’ve been thinking about seem like good blog fodder today. I suspect My Gentle Readers want to hear my speculations on physics and cosmology that what we call time is really the exponential function of the underlying real time, the equation would be, t=eT where t is the time we measure and T is what we should be measuring. Why? Because the exponential function is always positive. According to the Big Bang theory time has a starting point, t=0 where all of physics blows up, quantities become infinite. If we go with T=ln(t), then Time goes from -∞ to ∞. Time has no beginning and we avoid the singularity of t=0. I said I’m not going to blog about it but there are other reasons it makes sense. I have already written to much.
My mind does lots of scientific speculating. I’ve also been thinking about how limited our view of life is. We only know one example, earth life, which is all related. We have no idea what other kinds of life are possible. They could involve different amino acids. Maybe the genetic code is written without nucleic acids. How about life based on liquids other than water? Might the methane seas of Titan harbor life? That’s reason enough to send probes through the solar system looking for other examples. There’s evidence of liquid salt water in the interior of the minor planet Ceres. There might be life on many bodies in the solar system, totally unrelated, and based on different chemistry? Or maybe not and the only life possible is similar to earth’s. I want to know.
Wise Madness 