I need to stop scrolling and start writing. Good thing I woke up early this morning so even with all the procrastination I’m starting to blog before 1 PM. My therapist has me looking at what I accomplish, not what I don’t. I’ve accomplished having cold toes. It’s been cool in the apartment. Good thing I have nice fuzzy slipper socks. Wait, I have warmer ones. I’ll be right back. I’m putting them on now. How do they look? My toes feel better.
I had therapy yesterday. Weird thing, the call went straight to voicemail. I had my earbuds plugged in and the phone should have answered automatically. I didn’t find out she called, until I called her. I waited longer than usual to call because I was involved reading something in the New York Times. She was starting to get worried about me. I’m excellent about keeping my appointments. I might have to go to once every other week. There has been a surge of need for therapy because of COVID-19 without a surge in the quantity of therapists. She’s going to argue towards keeping me weekly but if she loses the argument I’ll understand. The most privileged class of all is people that already have something. I am well aware of that and don’t want to be a hypocrite. I don’t deserve to be favored just because I was her patient first. I told her that she should argue that she needs to talk to me weekly as I answer so many of her questions about news, science, science fiction, and what to watch on TV. She doesn’t think that’s an effective argument.
I got a call from Dan yesterday. It was great talking to him, and it was great not having to take the initiative to call somebody. Talking to friends on the phone is part of what keeps me, well not sane, let’s see functional. I’m a very unstable genius. All joking aside it keeps the depression at bay and reduces my anxiety. Anxiety does more practical harm to me, but depression hurts more. I did part of my therapy homework today. That meant accomplishing a goal, and blogging which I do regularly, doesn’t count. I had two specific tasks to do and I did one of them. Hey. I’m going to do more in that vein right here. Do you know tutoring in Math, Physics, or Standardized testing? Do you not understand how to do your child’s common core math homework? I tutor via zoom. I’ve been teaching since Roman Numerals were the next big thing.
I have to remember to record Gord’s Gold today. I still get anxious, but the levels are way down. I was going to say that I no longer feel anxious thinking about it but as soon as I thought that I got anxious. My forebrain is completing aware that I have this covered, my amygdala disagrees. The forebrain is much larger but the amygdala punches above its weight.
I’m out of sweets to eat but I’m trying to resist going out; they aren’t work risking COVID-19 for. On Monday I’m getting an infusion and that’s across the street from the bagel store and Stop & Shop, so I combine it with a shopping trip. I can wait two days to go out. The infection rate for the City continues to decline but it just increased in my zip code. I felt much better when the rate was under 3%. People seeing each other for the holidays caused the infection rate to skyrocket. Be good, and if you can’t be good be careful. Masks are respiratory condoms and COVID-19 a social disease.
Wise Madness 