Guess who is having another intestinal obstruction episode? Come on guess. Nobody? It’s me. I woke up feeling fine. I was hungry and ready to eat. I got up, stopped at the bathroom, and boom, it hit me. It’s relatively mild but it’s still there. As this is two weeks in a row I think it’s time I made an appointment with my GI. I just put a request into the system. Let’s see how long this takes. I am improving. I’ve been able to stay awake for hours. I couldn’t earlier. I had to cancel my Sunset Singing Circle plans. It ended up raining. Is it wrong that I hope it was canceled? Yes it is wrong. How ridiculous is it that I want others to forego a pleasure just because I have to? I no longer hope that it was canceled. I just checked. It wasn’t! I felt a moment of disappointment when I read that. Emotions are complicated. It’s another reason to not trust gut feelings. My guess is that everyone has moments like that. I know we all know people that have the gut reaction, don’t second guess them, and express them aloud or online. I had a friend who would often not only express his dark gut feelings but defend them. I have another friend that expressed something negative to me in a “you’re a friend so I can let you see this side of me” way and then talked herself out of the feeling. That’s a far better path to take. Don’t beat yourself up for thoughts, we all sin in our hearts, what matters is what we do about it.
Without leaving the house I had an idiot story. The one good thing about missing the Sunset Singing Circle is that I was home for Alice Hasen’s Fiddler’s Friday Live Stream. I woke up about an hour before it started; told Fred I had to miss the singing circle and cancelled our dinner reservation. I realized I was awake enough to concentrate. I started on my email and got involved reading about baseball and science At 4:50 my calendar reminded me that Alice was on in ten minutes. I clicked dismiss and went back to what I was doing. It was just ten minutes, I’d remember. I did! At 5:30, it was over. I can still watch it but part of the fun with Alice is interacting with her live. I showed a video of a Fiddler’s Friday to a friend, and her response was, “I want to be her friend.” Even though it is such a strange medium, streaming and FB concerts; I miss hanging out with Alice.
What I’ve done since then is listen to new music on my computer and putting some of the songs into my “future plays” playlist. It’s tough as there are entire albums that belong in it. This is the list of songs to be played on Gord’s Gold, not for personal pleasure. Sadly, I find that I don’t have that much time to listen for personal pleasure. I was good with Gord’s Gold. Last night I recorded next week’s show and today I emailed the artists I’m playing. Next up is preparing the promo video and zipping the entire show into one file to post on Mixcloud. You can listen to this week’s show without even leaving my blog. Here it is.
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I’m on the edge of being hungry but I know I can’t eat. I can’t even drink more than small abouts of water. I take small sips at a time as I don’t want to get dehydrated. I’ll have to put off being brilliant until I’m feeling better.
Wise Madness 