Welcome to a writing while watching the Met game edition of Wise Madness. Let’s see if I can gather enough concentration. Yesterday was not a good day. The weather wasn’t good, I didn’t take my walk, the only time I left the apartment was a quick run to the local supermarket. I bought comfort food, ice cream, fudge rounds, and brioche. Why is brioche comfort food? I made French toast for breakfast. Why did I need comfort food? I had an anxiety and depression attack last night. It hit after I bought the comfort food, which was simply good planning on my part.
What triggered the anxiety and depression? Nothing big. That’s how it works. I started spiraling down one of my standard rabbit holes. It looks like this.
All those years of therapy did not go to waste. I didn’t lean into it … eventually. I’m always observing myself and planning on blogging, that works against me as it makes me think about the very things I want to avoid. As I don’t want to get sucked into the vortex again I can’t tell you what it was all about. It’s nothing new, it’s something that I could think about every day; when the depression was bad I did. Why am I writing about it at all? This kind of thing happens to far more people that are willing to talk about it. It’s important to know that they aren’t alone. Part of this is assuming that people like me so that being like me is not a bad thing.
I did one thing I like yesterday, I remembered to watch Alice Hasen’s Fiddler’s Friday. I watched it every week until the Sunset Singing Circle started and I was always out on Fridays. The week the circle took off, so did Alice. Then I forgot to watch and took my Donut Walk™ . This was an unusual Fiddler’s Friday and for the most part it wasn’t a live performance, but Alice hosting a viewing of her Hamilton Sessions, a violin transcription of songs from the first act of Hamilton. I’m expecting a sequel of songs from Act II. I hope that doesn’t put too much pressure on you Alice. As you had to hear about my angst I’ll reward you with Hamilton Sessions (Act I).
Met’s update, they scored three runs in the top of the fifth and lead the Yankees 3-0. Taijuan Walker has not given up a hit.
I’m going out tonight for my first live music at an indoor venue, Tamar Korn at Barbès. They are requiring proof of vaccination. That should be the norm now. Tamar is not one of my regulars but that’s just chance. Whenever I see her I want to see her more often. I will have to ask her for music to play on Gord’s Gold. My intention is to play a song by from every live show I go to. I like personalizing everything I do.
Speaking of Gord’s Gold, not only did I submit Tuesday’ show on Friday morning, but I’ve already uploaded it to Mixcloud. I will become available for you to listen to on Wednesday at noon EDT. That’s impressive, by my standards, but there’s even more. I’ve started working on the next week’s show. I have picked out 30 of the 55 minutes music. I need another hour of programming a week.
Met’s update. They are now leading 8-0 after the top of the sixth. Before the Mets scored there was the usual fatalism on the Mets’ fan page. I’m getting better at ignoring that. On my baseball trivia group, I did point out that someone who disagreed with me on which of two players was better. I would have let it go but he got the stats all wrong. I’m interested in seeing if he does a Mea Culpa. That’s how I always respond. Many people don’t change their opinion even when they discover it was based in inaccurate data. Another update, the score is now 8-1, no more no-hitter or shutout. Aaron Judge hit a home run.
I’m going to sit back and enjoy the rest of the Met game. Did I mention I get to actually watch it on TV? For the first time this season I get to hear the amazing Keith Hernandez, Ron Darling, and Gary Cohen announcing team, the best in baseball. Let’s Go Mets!
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