Yesterday I went on an expedition for coffee. I feel guilty about doing so but I am careful while I’m out. There was a screen between Marie and me. I made the expedition because I’m now addicted to Marie’s Coffee Roasters. I never asked if she was actually Marie but every time I’ve been there […]
Category: Anxiety
I’ve been a bit down of late. I have all the time in the world and have skipped days writing. I have been recording Gord’s Gold. It’s my anxiety manifesting itself in new ways. I start and get anxious that I won’t be able to, and then I’m not able to. It’s classic performance anxiety. […]
I should have started writing hours ago. Why didn’t I? I have even less initiative than usual. I have to fight that. No use beating myself up, let’s start writing. My victory today was calling to make an appointment for my next infusion. It’s due a week from Saturday. I wasn’t even sure if I […]
I have things to write about today. Is that enough or do you want the details? You guys are so demanding. Fine, I can’t say no to My Gentle Readers. Last night we had the Seder, so I had to prepare for Pesach (Passover). No, I didn’t burn the chametz. I still have plenty of […]
Blogging in the time of COVID-19 is different. My entire schedule is different. Writing in the afternoon is becoming more common. I wish it wouldn’t. Notice I’m still saying COVID-19 even if the world is saying “Novel Corona Virus.” That causes too much confusion as there are many corona viruses and what applies to one […]
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Biden My Time
Let’s get the important think over first. I called the New York Department of Health about getting recertified for Medicaid and getting on emergency Medicaid for the month of March. Turns out that it will be taken care of tomorrow when I go to my insurance company Health First and get back on their plan. […]
I knew exactly what I was going to write about today. Now I don’t remember. Something with the election? I think it was something about a common cognitive error people make while discussing the elections. The technical name for my cognitive error is being an idiot. I can write about something idiotic I did that […]
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Let’s Go to the COVIDEO
I surprised my therapist by asking how the hospital is preparing for COVID-19? She said I was the last patient she’d think was worried about that. I’m not germophobic and medical issues are the one thing I have less anxiety about than most people. I’m not afraid of getting COVID-19 and picturing me or my […]
Yesterday started with very little sleep. I got home late on Friday and then had an 8 AM appointment for my infusion. I am supposed to get them every 8 weeks and missed a few. This was due to and reinforced a vicious anxiety cycle. The longer I waited the more anxiety I had about […]
I once said to a friend, “I love food, food likes me.” In one sentence summing up my relationship to both food and my insecurity with people. I’m bringing this up because I’m going to once again write about food. On Monday I bought cheddar curds for the purpose of making poutine. Yesterday I went […]
Wise Madness 